klance-fucking-everything
so the blue lion’s paladin’s traits are friendliest, most accepting, and super confident? Imagine lance feeling really down on himself and learning that and thinking “i don’t even fit my own qualities. maybe i was just someone to pilot the others from earth. maybe i’m just a placeholder until they find someone better.”
Okay, but that’s how he actually feels and one day they’re on a mission on another planet, and they meet an alien who fits all of the qualities. And someone- idk who- jokingly says he could be the blue paladin and lance just,shuts down.
And everyone kind of realizes it because he gets really quiet and they’re like, “Lance, buddy what’s wrong?” And he just kinda goes unresponsive before collapsing outta pure sadness. When he comes around again only Keith is in the room and he’s like, “am I just a place holder till you guys can find a better paladin?”
and then everything is FINE because keith explodes like NO LANCE you are SO IMPORTANT to the team and they couldn’t’ve made it so far without him and he’s so amazing with the aliens they meet and the rest of the team and YEA ok he can be kind of a jerk and super annoying but that doesnt matter!! becaus lance is SO smart and open and honest and IMPORTANT ok Lance we couldn’t do this without you!! Blue CHOSE you ok it’s not just so you could bring the rest of us up here Blue WANTED YOU! YOU!! not anyone else Not anyone they’ve met along the way because you know what! you’re the best there is for the blue lion and they KNOW that ok Lance is too incredible to ever doubt that so SHUT UP ok Shut up and realize that we need you!!
And then Lance kisses him and they cry and everything is FINE
But what if it’s not? What if lance is like, “You’re only saying these things to make me happy Keith. It’s okay to admit it.” What if Keith can’t get through to him, and Lance goes on for months without telling anyone else about it. What if Keith tries to tell him that he loves him, only to be met with, “no you don’t.” What if the other paladins don’t catch on until it’s too late, and that one alien who could potentially replace Lance starts actually trying to replace him because, “Hey, they all like me better anyway.” What if he tells Lance that. What if he keeps telling lance that. What if lance believes that. What if lance left? What if they found him bleeding out, half frozen on a planet of ice? What if the last thing he said before slipping unconscious was, “At least you guys have a new blue paladin.” @fictionismynationality
#:)#don’t make my sad stuff happy#I will make it even sadder
ok fine @lovelylangst What if this new alien is part of a society that literally worships Voltron. What if 10 000 years ago they had helped build the lions and over the years the story has been turned into a legend passed down generations and the lions are seen as Gods. What if this new alien had been captured by the Galra and Lance himself saved him from being killed by a soldier during the breakout. What if Lance starts wishing he had gotten there just a second too late. What if he starts questioning his own humanity after thinking such a thing. What if Lance actually does believe Keith when he says that he loves him but he just thinks its because Keith has some weird dominance thing. What if Lance thinks that Keith has only tolerated him for so long because he likes having someone to remind him of how much better he is- better pilot, better fighter… What if the new alien tells him he doesn’t deserve to wear the paladin armor. What if they tell him about the stories he was told as a kid and how they had fantasized about the kind of person it would take to become a paladin. What if they thanked Lance for keeping his armour clean, cuz thats all he’s good for anyway
That’s some lovely langst. And I raise you one more. What if everyone thinks it’s a joke. What if everyone laughs and lance just, cries. Because his friends agree. He runs away, and no one notices until after the fact. But by then it’s too late. The damage is done. Lance sits under the hot water spray, almost burning his skin off, but hey it’s water so it’s fine. Keith’s knocks on the door, yelling that he’s been in there for hours, a voice giggles at that. It’s the alien. He hears the alien flirt with Keith. He hears Keith speak back. He hears the alien move closer to Keith. He can only imagine what’s happening. He hears Keith ask in a shocked voice, “why did you just kiss me?!” He cries. He reaches the water and turns it to a freezing temperature trying to fry his nerves. The water feels like knives, and he lets out a scream. They get him into a cryopod too late, and once he gets out, the nerves in his left arm are completely fried. The alien asks him, “why the (alien version of fuck Bc they probably say something other than quiznak) would you cause a scene like that? It’s bad enough you’re not worthy of voltron! But then you bother the people that are! Pathetic.” @fictionismynationality your move.
You laugh at crying children don’t you
Imagine the alien getting mad at him for losing a limb over something so stupid. Imagine them throwing Shiros own abuse at Lance, saying thats what real sadness is. Imagine Lance just agreeing with him. He doesn’t get mad, he doesnt run away, he just stands there and accepts it. Because it’s true, isn’t it? He’s not worthy of Voltron and he never will be. It was bad enough when he thought of himself as second best to Keith, but then realized he was just a 7th wheel, a placeholder. And when the new alien came around it was like the universe spat in his face, the last tiny shred of self-confidence he might’ve had was ripped away from him. And Lance just silently takes it. Because it’s true.
Imagine the rest of the team getting mad at the alien for saying such a thing and mad at Lance for thinking it. Imagine Hunk crying shouting at the alien because thats his best friend and he is so much better than you will ever be. Imagine Allura lecturing them on what it really takes to be a paladin of Voltron and after today she knows that the alien definitely doesn’t have it. Imagine Lance not paying any attention to what’s going on because he’s so focused on how guilty he feels and how useless he is that all he sees is everyone gathered around the alien. No ones paying attention to Lance. So he just silently takes a knife (or whatever sharp thing might be lying around the med bay) and stabs himself. Imagine Coran only noticing because he stepped into the pool of blood that was on the floor. Imagine Keith clutching Lance’s dead (or dying whichever you prefer) body while the rest of them yell to get him into a pod. Imagine the alien standing there shocked at what’s happening, but even more shocked that the others are so heartbroken
Imagine Lance waking up after a record breaking three weeks in the pod. Imagine that the alien was the first one that finds him, because the other paladins are stupid. Imagine the other alien telling him that the others hated him even more now because he tried to kill himself. Imagine that Lance believes it.
Imagine Lance slipping down the halls, silent tears running down his face. Imagine him tripping over Keith’s door, because it’s open just in case, imagine seeing Keith.
Imagine Keith waking up and shouting, not realizing who it is. Imagine Lance thinking that Keith hates him because of everything. Imagine Lance running away in a fear to the observation deck. No one else is in there, so he does something that no one can revive him from.
Imagine Lance grabbing a rope, trying to end it- when Keith walks in.
Imagine Keith yelling and crying about how much he loves Lance.
Imagine Lance not believing him and stepping of the chair.
@fictionismynationality, I gradually challenge you to a battle of the angsty head cannons.
I would just like to apologize to @lancekoganee for hijacking their post I hope you enjoy all the angst you’ve inspired..
Imagine Keith sprinting to the other side of the room and lifting Lance off (He didn’t tie the knot right so his neck didnt snap God he can’t even die right) Imagine Lance sobbing into Keiths shoulder because he’s too tired to get mad. Imagine Keith kissing every inch of Lance’s face whispering every good thing about him. Imagine Lance letting himself believe it. Imagine Keith leading him to his own room and wrapping himself around him because he is never leaving Lance alone ever again. Imagine Lance finally believes that he has someone who cares about him. Imagine him finally starting to feel better (or at least that he can become better) Imagine him going to breakfast with Keith in the morning and immediately being bombarded with tears and hugs. Imagine him noticing the alien silently sitting away from the others (he didnt even bother to get up what a jerk) Imagine Lance remembering the feel of the blade on his throat (or heart or wherever he stabbed himself I can’t decide) and thinking that that was a better feeling than seeing the aliens face again. Imagine Pidge telling him that she’s already built a prosthetic for him and it’s even cooler than Shiros. Imagine Shiro promising to help him with the transition. Imagine Allura telling him that the greatest warriors were ones that were able to conquer their own demons. Imagine Lance knowng that’s supposed to be reassuring but also knowing that means he’s the opposite of a great warrior. Imagine him standing there as the aliens family welcomes them back home and knowing that he’ll never get that (he wouldn’t deserve it anyway, they’re probably happier without him). Imagine him rubbing the recent scars on his wrists and thinking that Keith should’ve just let him die. Imagine the paladins reactions when they form Voltron for the first time since all of that.
@lovelylangst you are a demon
@lancekoganee I too apologize but this is so much fun! Imagine that The paladins saying how whole they all finally felt. Imagine Lance thinking, “I felt so empty.” Imagine that Lance doesn’t tell anyone that. Imagine that Lance can’t tell them that. Imagine that during a mission, he gets cornered by a galra soldier with long white hair. Imagine this soldier harassing him about why he was the one chose to face off against him. Imagine the galra soldier told him that he could be great. Imagine Lance questioning why this galra is doing this. Imagine the galra smelling the half breeds scent on Lance. Imagine the galra saying he wanted to meet the rest of the team. Imagine him forcing Lance to radio in, and forces him to say that a galra has captured him and was going to claim him, in the galra culture. Imagine Keith flipping out because his instincts are like, “no. Lance is ours. Fuck this dude.” Imagine Lance screaming, and imagine Keith bursting through the door. Imagine the alien introducing himself as prince Lotor. Imagine the sick smile that crawls onto his face as he steals lance away to be a part of his haram. Imagine the team thinking, “we just got him back, we can’t lose him.” Imagining the alien offering to pilot blue. Imagine everyone being so desperate they let them. Imagine that their the ones that find Lance. They say, “Look, I’ve bonded with your lions. They actually don’t need you anymore.” Imagine Lance- after being held captive and having his conference degraded even more- snaps. Imagine him yelling, screaming, crying as his fist pummel the alien. Imagine Lance not being strong enough to actually pummel him. Imagine the alien taunting him. Calling him weak. Now imagine that everyone is heading what’s happening over the comms. @fictionismynationality ;))))
Pls don’t tag this as Lance x Lotor
Imagine Lotor using Lance’s self hatred to keep him complacent. Pls don’t Imagine him whispering how Lance is such a good boy. Imagine lance thinking that this is what he was brought to space for. Imagine him finding comfort that at least he’s keeping Lotor busy. Imagine him getting used to Lotor. Imagine him telling himself he likes it because then it hurts less. Imagine him depending on Lotors twisted praise to keep him sane. Imagine him thinking about Keith when Lotor is busy with someone else.
Imagine Allura freaking out because she knows what Lotor does (maybe firsthand?) Imagine Coran only now learning why she never wanted to be left alone with him.
Imagine Keith walking in on the alien training and taking out his fear and frustration with his fists.Imagine Hunk and Shiro having to drag him off of them. Imagine them hesitating and then feeling guilty about it. Imagine Lance seeing the bruises and thinking it was through some heroic act that Lance never could’ve pulled off.
Imagine the alien laughing at the pathetic sight of Lance laying on the ground at their feet. Imagine them bringing him back wearing nothing but the bruises and bloodstains that Lotor had left him. Imagine Lance being unconscious when he gets back to the castle. Imagine the rest of the team not knowing why the pod isn’t working. Imagine Pidge and Coran desperately trying to fix it. Imagine Allura having to say that maybe the pod is responding to Lances mind. Imagine Keith and Hunk yelling at her that that doesn’t make any sense. Imagine Shiro realizing that she’s right and telling Pidge and Coran to stop, that it’s no use. Imagine Keith feeling betrayed. Imagine him yelling at Pidge that she can’t just let her best friend die. Imagine her looking at him the same way Lance did when he saved him from the rope. Imagine Keith wondering if he had actually saved Lance at all.
Fuck. You fucked me up. Also sorry for tagging this Lance x Lotor, I don’t know what qualifies as it because most of the tag is… yeah. And now I raise you another one. Lance wakes up, eyes of hazy and blurry, and take one look at the rest of the people there and asks, “who are you guys?” In Spanish. Hunk is the only one that understands him. He cries. Imagine translating that, to the rest of the team, and watching the shocked horror that rises on their face. Imagine Lance learning that he had been put into space, away from his family and having a panic attack, muttering in Spanish, “This isn’t okay, this isn’t okay.” Imagine the rest of them realizing that Lance didn’t want to be there. Imagine Keith’s face when Lance asks who he is, hunk translating. Imagine now, that Lance slowly regains his memory. Imagine him screaming, waking up all of the castle because of everything that happened. Maybe Keith or Shiro runs in. Imagine Lance, slowly speaking in English like how he had to practice for months before the garrison and said, “You. You are the ones that broke me.” Imagine him hating himself. Imagine himself trying to hate everyone. Imagine the only one he listens too is Hunk. And now, imagine the field day the alien has with this. Imagine, that he agrees with him. @fictionismynationality sorry for not responding to this earlier I was at Green Day.
Oops @lovelylangst sorry for not tagging you. Ok I fucking hate memory loss but here we go:
Imagine that Lance buries deeper into himself than he already was. Imagine the team leaving him alone because they think he just needs to time. Imagine Keith getting mad because What if he tries to kill himself again? Imagine Shiro convincing him that this is what Lance needs, that Lance doesnt know who they are and they don’t want to overwhelm him. Imagine Keith crying himself to sleep imagining all the horrible things Lance’ll have to relive. Imagine Hunk having to retell all the horrible things. Imagine Allura trying so hard to stay diplomatic about it all but failing when she’s alone, wishing she had her dad to guide her. Imagine her feeling like she failed Altea. Imagine her remembering all the hard work her father put in to create Voltron and thinking that she can’t even keep her paladins close. Imagine her hating herself for not paying more attention to them. Imagine Lance walking in on her in the observation deck. Imagine her sobbing an apology to him and not having him understand what she’s saying. Imagine the alien using this to make Lance think they were friends. Imagine them manipulating Lance into thinking that the others forced him into this. Imagine Lance snapping one day that he never asked for this. Imagine him yelling at the others that he never felt so empty with his real family. Imagine everyone crying. Imagine the alien smirking. Imagine Lance opening a hatch door and letting himself be sucked out into space. Imagine him feeling relieved.
Let’s end this. Once and for all, fam. @fictionismynationality, we will have to hijack another post too have another write fight cause this was suuuuuper fun. Lance dies. Lance dies with no chance of revival. They find his frozen body drifting in space. He’s smiling. The impact of it kills the rest of the team. Keith had to be dragged away from Lance’s corpse screaming in kicking. He’s shouting about how much he loved Lance- still loves him. It’s hard to watch. Not almost as hard as when they traveled back to earth just for a day, and told his family, “He died a hero.” Seeing his little siblings tears of horror, seeing his mother take the dead boy from there arms, seeing the father demanding that they, “Get the hell out of my house right now! You fucking did this to him! My son is dead because of you!” Hunk doesn’t want to translate it. They all get the gist. Hunk gives lances jacket to Keith, but he keeps a neckless lance wore, because no one but him should have that. It’s a key. He has a matching lock one back on earth. Pidge forgets how to laugh. She only focuses on saving Matt. She already lost one brother to death, she’ll be damned if she loses him too. She doesn’t give anyone but Allura the time of day. She sends cold looks to Shiro, because Shiro made Lance feel worthless. She sends pitying looks to Keith who is on edge. One day he snaps. The alien had said that they should just get over it. Keith challenged him to a duel to the death and ended up killing him. Everyone sighed in a sort of relief. They had avenged Lance, just slightly. Coran lost a son, but he knew what lance would do. He tried to keep everyone as happy, and only really cried in Allura’s arms. Allura focuses purely on defatting the Galra Empire. She has too or else she will feel like she’s losing her people all over again. Shiro blames himself. He thinks that if he had been nicer too him, if he had just said thank you, instead of shoving off his ideas. He hates that he did it. Keith is the first one to die, because without Lance he threw himself into missions without thinking it through. He dies six years after Lance. He closes his eyes, and he swears he can see Lance’s beautiful eyes.
Thank you @lovelylangst for getting rid of the alien He was the Worst™
Hunk is the next to go. At first he ate too much, but eventually he stopped eating altogether. He doesn’t die in battle, he just slowly wastes away. No one is surprised to find him in Lance’s old room, curled up in his robe.
After that it’s Coran, who just couldn’t take it anymore. He tried so hard to keep everyone alive, but no one talks to each other anymore. there’s no light in anyones eyes. He collapses at his control station in the middle of a battle, and by the time they’re able to get him to a pod he’s gone.
Shiro dies next. He had been living off sheer force of will but 3 years after losing Keith, he snaps. It’s an intense battle inside the galra command ship but he’s severely outnumbered. He loses his prosthetic, he’s in the middle of several dead bodies, his eyes are hollow and even the bloodthirstiest of the soldiers can’t look directly at him. He brings Haggar down with him. The others aren’t able to retrieve his body.
Next is Pidge who does finally find Matt again. But it’s in the middle of a battle and she sees him right as he’s shot down. She runs to him not even bothering to dodge the sword swipes and lazer shots. She collapses next to her brother, bleeding and broken. “I found you…”
Allura dies last. Years after defeating Zarkon and bringing peace to the universe, she lays in bed surrounded by her new team. She’s old now and tired. She’s felt so much pain in her lifetime, she’s ready to see her family again, her altean one and her voltron one. As she looks at the paladins she remembers the faces of the second ones and sees the smiles that had been ripped from them so long ago. She dies in her sleep, proud of all she’s accomplished, but relieved to finally be done with it all.
This was the most wonderful thing ever. I just… :) I’m so happy. @lancekoganee what do you think? I thought this was wonderful. @fictionismynationality I really hope you know we’re gonna have to do this again sometime.
WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS ANGST FUCKERY??
@fandomlockedfan <whispers> It’s the most lovely langst :)))))))))
this is the most beautiful thing i have ever read
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